Saturday Night I went to a early 4th of July Party at a Good Friends Dads House. There were around 20 + people there, mostly kids in there 20s. Every one was having a good time, the kids were setting off fire works and laughing playing corn hole, there was music and even a huge Bon Fire...Several People had left, it was sometime after midnight and I was outside the barn smoking a cigarette. Next thing I know there is a woman screaming waving a SHOT GUN around  yelling something

about how the fire works were scaring her horse. I thought oh HELL NO... You are not going to make it past me with that shot gun... As we approached each other she was obviously very angry and had no business with a SHOT GUN screaming at a bunch of kids, that she needed to calm down and give me the SHOT GUN....She become offensive because I wouldn't let her past me, I grabbed for her gun and her other arm to keep the gun in my control, but she was scaring me so, I broke let her go and bu then one of my friends seen what was happening, and they took her gun... It was loaded one int the barrel ready to go. After the Gun was taken from her everyone was kinda running around, scared confused wondering what was going on... She Was more historical then ever now wanting her GUN bake that I had to try to restrain her. I learned she was the property owners renter, so I tried to get her to go with me to talk to him. I finally let her Go and I ran to the main house to get the owner... As we were approaching the barn, all I could here was screaming and i seen some movement, I began to run towards them and when I seen her i tackled her down to the ground, and was pulled off of her, I just wanted her to shut up. She had no business with that gun. My face hurt from the struggle with her gun, she wacked me in the right eye, gave me a shiner...so i just threw her down to bring the situation into control... and it did... she locked herself in her house we called the police she was arrested... Good...

The Most beautiful gifts in the WORLD are the ones that keep giving.... This is my oldest son with my NEW GRANDSON Jacob.... Welcome to the world little guy. What a surprise you are for our family...What a blessing you are...I am so In Love With You I want to just hold you for hours and look at how BEAUTIFUL you are....Thank You Zane and Sarah.... He is PERFECT...

LEAVE BOTH MY FLAGS ALONE...

Society cannot be held responsible for any one thing some idiot crazy confused fucked up individual does. I wont give up either flag for something someone else did. WTF is wrong with people. It is bad enough people are dying because of crazy people but the social media and government makes it a big racial deal. I am sick sick sick of it................... 

        Thank you everyone for reading my stuff. means a lot. Have a great night, rest well...

I am finding that as I rewrite and edit chapters in my book I am being forced to deal with Skeletons in closets I have locked away for good reason. I have relived moments in time in my life that once I thought would be my demise that i survived and rose above already, I cant let it cause me pain again. So I have decided to finally empty the closets and one at a time once and for all, let them free and only let it be a fainted memory that no longer lives trapped inside. I feel weights being lifted off my shoulders as I sift through these moments that have weighted me down for sooo long. Not only am a writing a great book that I hope helps people and touches there hearts, but I am freeing myself ...

I had just had exploratory surgery and i was in a lot of pain. It was nearly impossibly to get off the couch let alone take care of three kids cook and clean. When my husband came home from work, first word out of his mouth was see you laid on your ass all day. Well yeah i just had surgery, he said hospital didn't think u needed to stay there so there isn't anything wrong with you, get off your ass and clean this house make me dinner too. Well being in more pain then I could handle already I told him to fuck off and do it himself. Wrong choice of words, he came from the hallway and jerked me off the couch onto the floor and the surge of pain that moved through my body made me lose my breathe. get up bitch, your half way there he said. I couldn't get up i just couldn't I was crying, at this point the children were now watching. When I saw them I was instantly able to get off the floor and hide the fact i was pulled down there purposely and in pain. He had his cooler packed and walked out the door..i took everything i had to get myself up off that floor, but I did. I gathered up the kids, grabbed the baby and loaded them in the car a long with some stuff we needed, i did all of this outta pure adrenaline because i don't remember hurting anymore. I left as quickly as i could before he seen me. I knew if we stayed that if he was that big of a dick just getting home from work , a few beers would make him a monster. We arrived at my Mothers house, just 5 minutes away she about flipped and new something was wrong when i pulled in the drive and just sat there. The adrenaline wore off and i was beginning to feel everything once again. My Mother helped unload everything, she knew i wasn't even aloud to pick up my baby let alone all i had just done. I forgot my pain meds so after mom had the kids settled in i returned home to grab a few other things. When i walked in the house BAM.... there he was i knew this was not going to be good. He knocked me onto the couch, asking if i thought I could just up and go whenever and not tell him, At this point i am nestled in the very crevice of the couch in a ball and just as he raised his arm to hit me, my mother appeared at the door, Dont you hit her you son of a bitch, he turned to her and said bitch get out of my house this is my business, mom said that's my business, he shoved her out the door, she bucked right back up at him, and i knew he was going to knock the shit outta her, so i painfully erected myself and ran to her to take the blow myself. He told us both to leave then, we deserved each other, i grabbed my things and we did leave. I spent the next 4 days on the couch not able to move at all, the grace of God saved me that day, because i could have bleed internally from all the force my body took hitting that floor then picking my kids up... I lived yet another day...

I have many places that i like to go when I  write. Today I chose BAB..For those of you  that do not know what BAB stands for... Bare Ass Beach... Also know as AKA...Grosse Jean Park. This place is so old my Mother used to come here when she was growing up. U can only reach this place buy walking into a wooded area on many of the paths that have been made over the years...They all lead to the same place, The Applecreek, which begins down below Apple Creek, Ohio, through the country side into South East Wooster, Ohio, which is where BAB, is, then goes on too empty into the Kilbuck River on the South Side Of Wooster, Kilbuck goes, on on on...
Ill try to depict what I am seein to you right now. In front of me is the creek, right now the water is high so its moving more rapidly then normal. We have had a lot of rain and this area was flooded just two days ago you couldnt even get into the water or any of my sitting spots. There are a variety of different birds singing in the trees that stand tall and give the perfect amount of shade, to just sit and relax. There are wild flowers in patches here and there and  bushes with berries, not the kind you eat. I am sitting up against a hill like a chair with my laptop on my lap. Serveral paople with a couple children came past and they all had smiles on there faces. They were all drenched with sand stuck to there arms legs and cloths. Here comes a family body floating down the water. There little gitrl is refusing to leave the water, but they are ready to go, lol that sure brings back memories. One time just after it had been raining all morning, the sun came out and was shining bright and it was hot. I decided to take my son and one of his friends down here to hang out a little while and splash around a bit. When we got there the water was deep in some areas and in the deeper areas there was a good current. we round a spot that was shallow enough they could play, and I gave them there areas to stay in. Well being children they went a bit to far and the current pulled them both under, I couldnt run fast enough my heart was beating a mile a minute litterraly out of y chest. Just as I hit the water here they come, both of them right up out of the water onto the sand, like the current just spit them out. When i reached them my son was catching his breath and and panting, his friend was in shock crying yelling Mommy he was breathing hard but he didnt move, i knealt down to him and took him up into my arms and carried him and walked my so to our towels. I grabbed his towel and i sat down and wrapped him good and snug and rubbed his hair and rocked him,.. Few weeks before this, his mother had passed away, so I was absolutly heart broken, his mother was a very very good friend, she had died of from an overdose.  After he calmed down he was able to speak he said i saw my mom, i looked at him and i said you did, he said yes she was in the water, she helped us get up. I had to hold my breathe and tuck him back into a hug as i could not hold back the tears. My son was sitting next to us and his eyes began to overflow with tears and spill down his cheeks, so i grabbed him up and we sat there cryiing and holding eachother. Kyle pats his friend on the back and said its alright, you have my Mom now.
I will never ever forget that. Uhhh I am crying right now...